It happened

My fear had resulted.

It starts like this:
X is a friend of Y, Y is a person who is totally against me. Y was very against me, for whatsoever reason I didn't know or knew but not sure. Therefore, if you ask Y about me, there sure be hell lot of negative comments, I knew that very well because I had heard what she said about me before. X is a good friend of Y, therefore I suspected influence on X. Hence, I would like to shut X mouth as well, imagined X and Y hanged together for so much time, anything come out of X mouth would be uncomplimentary of me.

Whether I succeed or failed, I'm not sure. But it doesn't matter because I chose to retrive information from X while exposed myself to such risk. That information proved to be valuable to me, and I'm satisfied with the result.


I have to admit that I only like pretty girl, but not ugly girl. That's my preference, like you like to eat ice cream or chocolate. It's completely personal, even some people would view such as not a good thing. But that's stupid, why not? Why not like pretty girl but ugly girl?

That preference had given me a lot of haters at high school. I was quite a popular guy in my high school, a lot of juniors approached me, but I only talked to those who were better looking. Those who were fat and ugly, who appeared repulsive to me, had less of my attention (girl only, guy I don't have preference). I admit it is wrong, but it's too late.

So everything comes out from them about me is negative, I had seen it, heard it myself. That is why I don't want any comment from them.

Why pretty girl?

As to I only like pretty girl, it's my choice and preference, it's completely personal. It's like you like ice cream but dislike chocolate. Why not like pretty girl? I can see no reason for that at all. What I have changed is I make friends with anyone, I don't care about their look, but I would want my gf to be pretty, because that's what I like. There's nothing wrong with like only looks, it's not because a person likes about looks then he is shallow.

It's what I like, I can't deny it and by saying it's not good or something. That is a common misconception. Already there are many people who choose their partner based on look. And another misconception is, people who are pretty are generally of bad character. That is bullshit, there are bilions of people in this world, how many of them are good looking and bad looking? there are people who are good looking and of good character, and there is a saying "appearance sprouts from your heart". I'm not saying that I agreed with that judging people like that, but what I'm saying is everyone is different.

Another good point I would like to raise is, good looking people are contented with themselves, therefore grown conceited and have bad character in general. That's a very good point, but it doesn't apply to everyone. Still there are many many many good looking people with good character. Have you ever seen a violent criminal with good looking and handsome face? again, everything is not what the general community thinks. It's what you encounter and what you received and then perceive.

For me, there are certainly people with good looks and good character. Why choose to give up one side but have another? I can't stand people with bad character as well, it will only bring shame to myself. SO, you can have both. Have both in balance. A person who is good character must at least good looking, a person who is good looking must have at least good character. Again, it's completely a personal choice, I'm not urging anyone to follow me.