The place

Today marks the first time I ever lost, before this I really cant accept to lose.

I did as I was told. But what happened to my perfectionist view? Fuking undermines it. But it doesn't matter, to always win means I must be stronger. Currently I'm not, I don't really like to lose, but if you never lose you'll never win. It's like randomly fire a gun and see what it hits.

I prefer I only need to fire once.
I'll reach the place. Where non is able to reach, it's ridiculously godlike, and I shall be there alone.


Misconception, Otaku? or playboy? I'm already one of them.